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Fazleen.

Leen Ah Leen!

Turning 21 on 7 Nov.

MDIS; Diploma in Travel, Tourism & Hospitality Management
Im just a simple girl

I've changed my man.

But pharell is still second best.

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WHAT MORE COULD I ASK FER?

Ouh yeah. my bike license.

Drop it like it's hot, YAW!

OMG!


i was sitting at my balcony, minding my own business and watching tv.
i swear this adver made me cry sia!


please give 3 mins of ur time.
just 3 mins.
=)



mum: eh, asal?
me: so sad laa the ad. its damn good.
mum: about? *looks at the ad*
me: continue to cry.

LOL.
yes, im a weakling.
i know.

but honestly laa, this adverd, is super duper ubber good laa!
a darn good one.
dun u think?!



"its these little imperfections that make them PERFECT, fer you!"

i honestly truly agree laa.
i was like, "eh, i rmbr i ever blog about this about that particular someone in my blog last year!"

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another 2 crazy asses burfdays!

siti diyana

nur liana



who both turns 19 today laa!
*dang!*

their the same age as me.
i feel so young!

huhuhuhuhu

love u girls!

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he was my sunshine, & my heartbreaker!
and yes, u people know its him, still...










words, its only words.

i dun understand why does people use sweet werds to lure the opposite sex?
i mean, if thats the case, is the feeling towards him/her fer real?

and words.
words that makes people feel like that their on CLOUD 9.
but, actual fact, do they really mean it?


and yes, i do admit.
i do over think on stuffs at times.
but, its kinda too late fer regrets, aint it?


why do i say such stuff?

cos my mr emotions controller has been playing wif my feelings.
fer the past few days, ive been having sleepless nights.
sleeping at 3am, waking up at 7am.
like WTF right.

i woke up feeling kiinda happy this morning,
msged and stuff, few hours after waking up,
i was feeling pissed.

and now, im kinda regreting it wat i kinda did.
but then, i asked myself.

i swear, no one has made me cried a mini kallang river sia.!
honest.


is it all worth it?
sometimes, i feel kinda fucked up.

why do i bother, when hes happy wif someone else?
and ya, i know u people say.

"fazleen, get a life laa."
"move on. hes not worth it."
"he did u wrong."
"u deserve someone better."
"why do u bother"
"hes happy enjoying himself, and why should u be sad."


i tried and tried.
failed.
started all over again.
tried and tried.
and yet, came crumbling down again.

but, at the end of all these.
i could only think of a few sentences.


"after we sought revenge, it ruined our relationship totally"
but, what relationship do i haf wif him now?


and yes, he was my sunshine but hes now my heartbreaker.
why do i love him so much, u ask?
i wont say it laa.
cos i wouldnt want another fucked-up slutty whore to steal him, again,right?
but, oh wait.
hes isnt mine.
when hes not around, i'll say to myself,

"eh slenge, u know he's wif her. and god knows what they haf done. why u even bother. pls eh fazleen, last warning, get a life."


it doesnt hurt seeing them happy togther.
IT KILLS ME!

its almost coming to 2 months, and yet, yes i SUCK big time.
i know i do too.
but whenever i see him, my heart beats faster and slower at the same time.
i reli dunno laa.
amist all these 'fatimah rocker' laughter, my heart still do beat, fer him.
but he just dun see it. or maybe he dont bother to even bother.


every single day, i was tempted to msg him 48567342986947689328 times!
but, i didnt.
i just simply wanted to know how his day is, haf he eaten, how is he feeling today.
i wanted to, but i cant.
cos, ill be dissapointing the important people in my life.
why should i wanna do that, right?

and when im blogging this out, i cnt help it but teared.
besides, i wont want to be second best, i wanna be THE best.
but hey, second comes before third!
*kening naik-naik*
hahahahahahaha.

i shan't pour out my entire feeelings here.
this is just a sneak peak of it.
yes just aboit 17% of how i feel, and think.
and, pls dun judge simply cos u aint in my shoe.


so, yea.
i do tend to keep stuffs to myself, most of the time.
and only let it out, whens its too late.

pls, please be gone, you sleepless nights.
and, this 'feeling' as well.


PS: Please stop staring at me just because u feel save behind that counter. i can just come over if i want to uh. Last warning eh, missy. Seriously.

And and, if u dare to make up stories, please take the ownership. Dun push the blame to me. I dun enjoy clearing people's fucked up mess. tho' i was in housekeeping before.
hahaah.



and, OMFG!
im freaking late to werk!

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i was at werk, like usual.
saw yana, and her bf, and her bf's friends.
haha.


and and, when i was doing loose hands, there's this small boy who approached me.

boy: hey, helo!
me: yes? cn i help u.?
boy: no. i was sitting over there. *points to the sommar range before the check-outs.* then i saw u here, so i came to say hi.
me: *laughs* okay. so r u here alone?
boy: no. im wif my parents. *points to his parents* we are gonna get hotdogs. u want one? i can buy it fer u?
his parents, OMG!
dad- ang mo, mom- japanese.
me: nah, its ok. im fine.
boy: *leans back* i see u got more to do. i can accompany you.
me: yah, sure. youre parents know ure here?
boy: ya, i think. so, if i come down to IKEA again, i can see u again?
me: *laughs* yup yup. but i wont be here, ill be at level 4, beds and wardrobes department.
boy: oh, ok. so, u'll always be here, right?
me: nah, nt always.

as we chat, his parents called him.

boy: oh, my parents are calling me. ill see u soon, ok? BYE!
me: oh, bye!
boy: *runs back to my direction* i said BYE! bye.!
me: *laughs* yes, BYE hotstuff!
boy: whats that?
me: haha. nothing.
boy: ok then. ill come back soon to see u. BYE. *walks a few steps and turns back.* BYE!


tat small tod reli made my day sia!
honest.
i was smiling from simei to joo koon!
hahaahaha..




life is like a bottle of snapple-
cos after ure done wif the cranberry&rasberry juice, u can still re-fill the bottle.

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today is monday.
and monday means, im officially off my treacherous 6 months of agonising attachment.
cheh.
well, it wasnt so bad, apart from the last few oh so short short weeks where certain people just decided to be so fucked up..
i'll miss the people there laa, thats fer sure.


ill miss the ever-so messy counter where it gets pointless after me, cleaning it fer the 5348674806326 times.
i'll miss watching ghost movies that will scare me silly during night shift.
i'll miss the times where i just laugh my heads off.
i'll miss the weird weird guests.

i'll miss eating at the counter during night shift.
and, jocelyn, thanks fer the delifrance fruit tarts babe!
it was surprising super feeling laa.!


but most of all, what i'll miss is these other two babes in black laa- erna & jocelyn.
i'll sure miss the times we had our late night super.
i'll miss the time where my car's engine stall and u babes panic. super classic laa.
i'll miss the time where we got lost in town, driving.
i'll miss the times that we had, and shared.
i'll miss the secrets that we shared.
i'll miss the long rides to works in bus 23.
i'll miss the times where i know i was feeling down, u two will always be there fer me, console-ing me.
i'll miss the times where we had our mini picnics at the back office during night shift.
i'll miss the bloppers that we had.
i'll miss 'fighting' with u girls in what to order fer Mac Delivery & Pizza Hut.


and, guess wat, as im blogging about this, im weeping away.
sigh.
i never realise how these two haf affected me in more ways than one in such a short short time.
friends till the end, okay?

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my worst fear has finally come.
oh well, im freaking down.
but i wish fer the best.



i still love you.
yep, i still do.

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okay. i cnt sleep laa.
i neeed a plumber.
well, im having a flu usee, a bad one.
and, im at my second tissue box.
shhesh.

and and, im off tmrw.
wat a day to spend my off day.

sidetrack.
i was youtub-ing.
and and, i stumbled upon this clip.
its super hilarious laa.
i dunno if u guys have watched it.
but the rating is pretty high, i must say.
ok, ready?



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haha. whoever u r, dude, ure dance, fantabulous laa.
off the wall..!
i cnt even dance like him.

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im officially down wif a terrible terrible flu.
baby just called me.
poor thing laa.
hes drained out. thanks to his projects.
say, i do miss doing projects laa.
haha.

da la. bye.
im gonna slp too.
nites!


oh oh!
before i gho, i need ur help laa.
yes u.
i have 7 days , well almost 7 days of unclaimed Public Holiday.
and, i end my attachment on 15 march.
shld i claim it inbetween feb or calim it days beforemy attachment ends?

HELP!

oh ya.
and i love mud adnan oh so damn much!
=)

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haha. this happened on wednesday.
tell me went was the last time i met them.
ya ya, i know.
my bad.

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housekeeping tdy was pretty fine..
i recieved a tip from a guest; 7 bucks.
huhu.
plus an hong-bao from the boss of all the bosses.

WOOHOO!

im now down wif a slight fever.
fever bug, pls go away.

and and,im having a mini kanye west concert in my living room.
on MTV.
haha.

acterli, tats its.
fer today.
dun reli haf much to blog about.

babylove, im waiting..
haha.

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so, my day didnt start too well today.
well, lets just say tat,

• i was freaking 5 mins late to werk today. *damn!*
  
• i stained my blouse.
• my pantyhose tore.
• i was starving during my shift.
• a new full timer was getting on my nerves. well, they say a hungry person is an angry one.
• a guest was super annoying.

but apart from all those fuck-ened suff, my day after werk was nice laa..

after werk, when hunting fer my GM's burfday.
from town are to tampines mall, in the end, bought fer her a CHOMEL watch bracelet.
the things at CHOMEL, N-I-C-E!
*hint hint!*
haha.

feeling super exhausted, on my way to bus 38 berth, i saw something!
reaalllllllllllly!
sumthing shocking!

WARNING: Viewers discretion is advised!


u guys have been warned!

ok, ready?!

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haha. see, i warned u guys. obviously, 'she' wasnt aware of the mini photo-taking session.
ok laa, since u all are nice enuf, here's a close up.
hey, i put my life on the line just to take these photo.
i went into the CD shop ok.
and im sure that the sales girl think that i wanna steal some CD.
sial ah, its in chinese sia.
WTF.
ok, back to this 'madam' here.
im not sure whether is he really a SHE-MALE or is he just being dared..
make sense right?

lemme explain.

• if he reali a SHE-MALE, she must be one of the worlds most ugliest SHE-MALE evr to live.

dunt u see, super short short hair, an ugly dress, the colour combi, my oh my, dun even mention tat. and and, this missy wore a pantyhose, and a MISMATCHED one at tat. the colour, was off laa. dun ask, just OFF.

• if he was being dared, my he got balls of steel laa. fancy him wearing like tat at tampines.

in any case, im pretty glad that he didnt see me and chase me laa. imagine FAZLEEN BTE MOHD RAFIK was being chase at TM, by a SHE-MALE.
wah-lau. superrrrrrrrrrrrrr paiseh laa.


ok bye, im done blogging.
starsky and hutch is waiting.
did i spell it right?
BYE!

adnan, if u happen to be reading, u know the drill.
thanks!

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haf u seen muhd adnan bin jufri.?
he was report missing since 11pm.
he cant call me cos his sis using da phone.
same story on my side;mummy dearest using pulak.


well, if u happen to see him, kindly tell him i miss him soo soo much.
thank you.

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im so super duper ubber relieved that my nightmare is oh-ver! wait! it wasnt even right. haha.
let us breathe in the fresh air... *ahhh..*


till then..

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happy 13month-sary to us!

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superman, save me can?!


im at my wits ends.
im super duper ubber bored laa.

i ran outta songs to hear.
from pop, rnb, rock, hip hop, jazz, reggae, trance and even oldies sia!
from the past to the present.
im currently listening to force vomit.

i dunno wat else to do sia.
and its 515am. thnak god im going home in 2 hours time.
yeah!

i think ill read my cleo magazine again, my 3rd time reading it laa.
haha.

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hey hey!

im at werk now.
night shift, yet again.

i met babylove before gg to werk.
i simply love him laa.
hope u like the gifts, love!
hehe.

oh damn!
gtg.
need to do night audit.

ter-rah!
and and, enjoy playing my lappy, love.

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its already 345 am, and i still cnt sleep sia.

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A very happy happy happy birthday to Nur Liyana Bte Abdul Rahman.
she turned 19, like finally!
haha.

and im a day late.
yikes!

love u from the bottom of my heart..

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i admit. i do miss hangout wif this person here.

yeah, fer reasons known to me, i know ur bz doing ur assignments.
or it cld be something else.

so, tell me mister, when did the last time we went out?
if i rmbred correctly, it was hari raya laa.

=(

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