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Fazleen.

Leen Ah Leen!

Turning 21 on 7 Nov.

MDIS; Diploma in Travel, Tourism & Hospitality Management
Im just a simple girl

I've changed my man.

But pharell is still second best.

Wish List ツ

WHAT MORE COULD I ASK FER?

Ouh yeah. my bike license.

Drop it like it's hot, YAW!

im happy today.
haha.

now, i can do my report in peace, like finally.

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i so can write a 5 thousand words essay on the "WHAT IF" thats occuring in my life right now.

told u guys that i had alot, i mean ALOT of "WHAT IF".
haha.

anyways, a shout out to this 2 babes here!
thanks alot, aites?


im getting it, slowly.
and, i appreciate it.
but wat i said, was true.
=)



haha.
end.

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i oh-so swear i hate february 2009.
no words can explain the immense pain that i felt.
another freaking day till fucked-up february ends.
i cnt wait fer sunday, cos sunday, its march!
and and, im off on sunday.
and and, i really really hope that this sunday will be possible.

i wanted to blog about another topic, but, oh well, lets just keep it to myself.




my heart beats faster.
waiting on the other line.
still, beating fast.
6 seconds later.
dissapointment.

4 hours later, heart still beats as fast.
but something has changed.
now, a major dissapiontment.
tsk tsk tsk.

ermm, i'll try again later?
perhaps?

oh well,

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i was youtubing, and chatting...
and a friend sent me a link.
this guy ah..!
last warning.!

if i was the english teacher, ill jump down sia.
super rabak sia.
the diction ah.
cannot make it!
tsk tsk tsk.

enjoy k?

Tuts My Barreh

ouh damn!
i gonna continue doing my project.
and where the effing shit m i supoose to find anothe 3k words fer my report?!
ter-rah!

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so, adnan's exam week officially ends today.
i know that u can ace it.
ツ

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so, today at werk, guess who decided to finally die on me?!

my dearest sony ericsson W910i laa.
right after lunch time sia.
i was so super irritated and disturbed laa.

so, after werk, i dragged my parents along to TM.
to buy a new handphone.
so smgt right?
haha.
obviously, i gt a sony ericsson phone too.
haha.

i wanted to buy sony Xperia, but no stock laa.
so, i wanted to buy another phone when my contract ends, so fer now, im using....

C902

Now you always have a camera with you, so use it: document a day trip, capture a moment of madness or just fool around. Sony Ericsson photo phones use Cyber-shot™ technology to give you mobile imaging that’s just as good as your digital camera. Phones for photographers.

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its been only more than a month at housekeeping.
And there's alot, and i mean ALOT of damages done.

to date, i've broken 4 glasses, 2cups and 1 saucer.
haha.
simply terrible laa.
now, its becoming clear to why i didnt werk in the F&B line.
lol.
the restaurant will go bankrupt sia at the rate im going.

apart from that, my hands are robbed of its youth laa!
serious.!
as tho my hands arnt in a bad condition, its worst now!
the finger scanner cnt even read my index finger laa.
WTF!
rabak or wat?!

and and, me being me, ive got cuts to my fingers.
my feet and back hurts.
and theres this ubber big bruise in my feet.
like kena abuse sia.
while, in reality, im only doing housekeeping.
but, it doesnt matter.
i kinda love it in housekeeping.



and, see wat i found while cleaning the rooms...

haha
u see that?

12 pieces?!
hardcore sia.
so, u see, hpusekeeping enables me to see a different side of the guest.
haha


sidetrack, after werk, dee-baby and me decided to go to bugis.
in was super slack, ok.
my colour co-ordination ah, tsk tsk tsk.
i bet the fashion police would have thrown me in jail if i got caught!

imagine.
me, wearing my 3/4 black skirt, light and dark purple stripes shirt and green jacket..
and, slipper sia!
haha.

and i went to town wif it.
walked to cityhall from bugis, then from city hall to plaza singapura...
haha.

i was drizzling..
and i saw this.

awww. nice right.
its nt a professional-photographer-shot, cos its taken using my handphone laa.
and, my SONY digicam cnt on laa.
dang it!
its nice right?


wait wait!

before i go, i was just pondering about this..
its just a tot.
this might be oh-so random.
but but, wat is the colour of the condom ah?
cos, the box that i saw was in orange.
but the wrapping was in red, so the latex condom is in wat colour sia?
oh, if it helps, the brand of the condom is DUREX.
so, wats the answer ah?

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this might be posted a lil too late.
haha.

so, after werk today, i decided to watch movie laa.
made my way down to town, cineleisure to be exact.
watched "hes just not that into you."
been wanting to watch that movie laa.
read the book.

overall, it was kinda ok ah.
funny, certain parts.
i cried laa.
haha.
the guy, ben baby, super romantic laa.

wait! i cn go on and on abt this.
but, shant elaborate.
u guys go watch k?

side track, i jusr realise that i got abt a week left to prepare fer my project laa.
damn!
gotta start, really soon.

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the truth hurts, but a lie is worst.


its suprising on how people can like really lie thru their teeth.
tsk tsk tsk.
and, a really good acting, by the way.
i was taken in.
maybe u should consider joining the EMMY awards next year?
i think u haf a pretty good chance of winning..

and, guys, do u know that TAMPINES library have moved to Orchard road.
*rool eyes*
and and, is nt as quiet as it used to be.
well, in that particular library, u can laugh loudly.
and, people wnt even mind if urs kissing, hugging, holding hands wif people who u label as 'jus a friend.'
AMAZING right.
tsk tsk tsk

and, get this.
i never know that animals can send text msgs, make calls, wearing revealing clothes.
they can even make people fall in loove wif them.
WOAH!


dude, i freakingly honestly sincerely bloody trusted you sia.
i really fought back when they talked crappy and degrading stuff about you.
but, it doesnt seem to bother you.
yet, u dare deny?
well, people wif their love life kn.
sigh.



and, i didnt rmbr that we went out, and get home so late ah?
maybe ull reaching home by 12mndng?
but its okay kn?
shes msging you, anyways.




OM OH MY!
tat was one bloody good play,dude!
a really good one!

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i know ur busy mugging fer ur exams.
i wish you all the best fer that, aites?
pass wif flying colours!
deep down, i know ure capable of doing it.
just another week left!
im oh-so sexcited laa!


and adnan, im learning and trying k?
just fer you. ツ

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YOHA!

if u guys didnt notice, i changed my blog layout.
i was my first time, so super sexcited laa!
lol.
thanks to the peeps who assisted wif the blog thingy.
im annoying, i know.
haha.


side track, i posted about the BUGIS bomb msg ystd.
so, i was reading the newpaper.
and, guess wat i bumped into.
too lazy to type it out, so..

(click to enlarge)

haha.
i had alot to blog about today acterli, but lets save it fer the later days, alright?
huhu.

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nazhu ask me to watch this.
its kinda sad tho, but kinda motivating.
it reminds me of adam khoo.
rmbr?
cheh


have fun watching..





and and, i received an sms from JAWS and my sis.
both of them msged the same thing.

fer those people who takes bugis as a second home, u might wanna spare me 3 mins.
dun know howtrue, but better be safe then sorry, right?
so, here goes..

"kindly spread the news to your friends. if possible, dont go to BUGIS these few days. terrorist may plant bomb around that area. this msg was fowarded from my friend's army friend. who said they are already on 24 hours standby. not sure how true, but a friend was at bugis today and there were really many policemen."

so guys, i did my part by telling u guys.
haf u?

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why must it be one after another..


you've been a part of my life since november 2007.
but now ur leaving me?!
pls dont do this to me.


well, the thing is,

my sexy red-hot W910i is dying on me laa.
like wtf.

haha. but, i did kinda give u guys a panic attack right?
right, admit laa.
damn right, i did!
haha.

my dearest W910i, no matter how much it hangs on me, dies on me.
it does have a sentimental value to it.
the messages that i saved.
the phone that i used to take photos wif.
the phone he touched.
the phone who witnessed my good and bad times.
pls, i dun want to change a handphone.

i cnt answer any calls, neither cn i reject them.
the cancle button is nt functioning.
niether id the delete button werking.
it also dies when theres no recpetion.
and and, 60% of the time, it has bo reception.
and when i tried to off and on it again, it revived only on the 7th attempt!

rabak or wat sia nie.
dang it laa!
sigh.

my dearestW910i,
i still love you deep deep, k?



now now, i need a replacement fer it. so, what shld i get?

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plans to go eat out wif adnan was cancelled.
its his exam week.
so, he needs to study.

i had a wake up call fer my dearest cousin..
at 930am sia.
like WTF.

as u all know, i aint a morning person.
wats more, i slpt late ystd.
waiting fer someone's msg or call.
but it didnt came.
twist and turn, i slpt at 5am.

so, here's my convo wif him. the shortest convo ever laa.
him: oi! still aslp ah?
me: ahhh..
him: wake up laa. wat time alrdy.! u ok onot? leen, ok tk?!
me: silence
his tone of voice changed.
him: siak ah. stop thinking laa. it wnt make a diff.
i became teary eyed. i told him ill call him back.
him: nvm. ltr, after werk, ill drop by.
me: ok.
and hung up the phone.

im pathetic, i know. but i cnt bloody help it.
i knw he cares abt me.
but, it aint easy to change my feelings.
i dun feel complete.

i guess things are better on his side.
he seems fine to me.

sigh..

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so, i received an sms from zul, an IKEA friend.

his sms read,
"hey. jz wan to let u noe dat me and rahmat dad juz pass away dis tengah hari. besok pagi di kebumikan. if u cant cum juz hope for prayers to him, n plz help me inform the ikea staff. thanx."

weell, it turns out that, its not his dad. its his grandpa.
my friend, im sory fer your lost.
ill try to come, aites?

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well, sue-baby tagged me this on facebook. i was bored laa. so, i did it here instead.
haha.

Last beverage → heaven & earth, green tea.
Last phone call → Adnan.
Last text message → Firman
Last song you listened to → the way that i love you, by ashanti.
Last time you cried → haha. thats easy. just a few hours ago.

HAVE YOU EVER:
Dated someone twice → yup yup.
Been cheated on → yup. i haf. and it suck laa. dang it!
Kissed someone & regretted it → ermm, lemme think! haha. kinda.

IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU:
Fallen out of love → yup yup
Laughed until you cried → Yes. on thursday, 19 feb.
Met someone who changed your life → u bet!

How many people on your top friends do you know in real life?→ All of em.
How many kids do you want to have → 2 sounds good. or maybe 3?
Do you have any pets → ooooooh yes!
Do you want to change your name → nah ah. im happy wif it.!

What time did you wake up today → 6.57am.
What were you doing at midnight last night → thinking of things...
Name something you cannot wait for → graduate, i guess? and another, but, lets not say it here, aites?

Last time you saw your father→ a few seconds back. in the living room.
What's one thing you wish you could change → people would kill me, but due to reasons known, my physical apprearance?
Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → tom? any tom ah? yes ah. tom huzell, hes the IKEA, ermm, something..

What's getting on your nerves right now → my wild imagination?
What's your real name → fazleen binte mohammed rafik, yaw!
Primary School → Opera Estate Primary School
Middle/Secondary School → East Spring Secondary School
Tertiary School → ITE College West, Clementi.
Hair color → brown, i think.
Long or short → Long.
Are you a health freak → Nah.
Righty or lefty → to the right, to the right. haha.


FIRSTS :
First surgery → p4.
First piercing → k1
First best friend → alamak! wait wait. i know this. hui jie, ah yes!
First sport you joined → netball, babe!
First pet → 2 hamsters. i was k2 then.
First vacation → malacca. hahas.

CURRENTLY :
Eating → nope, nt eatin.
Drinking → Nothing.
Waiting → for my tv show to start. lol. and adnan's sms.

YOUR FUTURE :
Want kids? → Yes. i gotten names fer them too.. haha
Want to get married?→ yup yup, I do.
Careers in mind? → Hospitality Industry.

HAVE YOU EVER :
Kissed a stranger → gila or wat sia!?
Drank hard liquor → im an angel! *winks!*
Lost glasses/contacts → pls laa, dun even say it.! it breaks my heart! haha.
Ran away from home → nah. no reason to.
Broken someone's heart → yep, i haf.
Been arrested → haha. WTF?
Cried when someone died → yup. last august

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
Yourself → it depends. i always try to.
Miracles → pathetic, i know,. but yes.
Love at first sight → Nah. i aint so gullible!
Heaven → I do.
Santa Clause → nah.
Kiss on the first date→ haha. it depends..
Angels → Yeh!

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
Is there one person you want to be with right now? → u huh! dying to be with!
Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → No. i aint that kinda girl.
Do you believe in God? → Yes, I do.

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its surprising how things, imagination, words and people cn mess up one's mind.
obviously, my mind is messed up.
in fact very very messed up.

like, how people is capable of changing someone's emotions.
like, how words cn make people's imagination run wild.

how now brown cow.?
in fact, i think im emotionally unstable laa.
and its killing me!

k laa.
i hope ill hear fer u soon.
and i hope its nt true..

and and, i was bloghopping, my oh my..
why are people so vulgar nowadays sia?
tsk tsk tsk.
oh well, everyones a critic.

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cos you're the best i ever had, too.
=)

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my oh my!
i love today laa.

and and,today i declare myself a professional cleaner.
LOL.
i cleaned toilets fer the past fer days.
huhu.
and,i fell in the toilet today.
face first!
wif a freaking loud loud thud laa.!

the thing is, nobody knew sia.
not until i told kah yong laa.
DOINKS!

moving on, my day just keeps getting better..
i met adnan.
muahaha.
that was honestly, one of the best car trip laa..
nan, i believe u laa, k?
so guys, we're cool!

adnan had to go study wif his friends.
so, i went to VIVO city.
yup, all by myself laa.
i swear, i feel so visually molested laa in the train.

to the guys in mustard T-shirt, standing opposite me.
and the auntie wearing purple sleeveless.
i saw wat u guys did, k?
haha.

u know, the feeling of people staring at u, which makes u feel uncomfortable.
tsk tsk tsk..
i dunno y, i always get that sia.
even though i change my position.
like WTF.
i gt 8 eyes is it?


this is random.
never u guys mind.
feeling feeling wanna bun my hair..
and ya, so good nights ya'll!

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Desire is heartbreaking..

Every freaking single time my handphone beeps, ouh baby, i wish that it was you...


i still do freaking miss him.

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when i was at werk today, mopping the toilet, something struck my mind.


MyHotComments


`who are my true friends?

well, i admit, im nt a perfect friend.
lacking in many areas.
wait, in fact, im a bad bad bad friend.

most of the time i wasnt there fer them, i admit that.
ive always wanted to write about these, but honestly, never had the courage to do so.
after writing a draft, ill delete it instead of posting it.

i began to ponder why i dun always hang out wif them.
think fer awhile.
i didnt need to think hard.
well, its just me.

ive always been the one who looked down upon my self laa.
always having low self esteem laa.
i sumhow compared them to myself.

"m i fit to hang out wif them?"
"m i too fat, too ugly, too boring?"

even when im having a bf, my imagination runs wild.
well, imaginations running well, thats not healthy.
cos u know y?
low self esteem= imaginations running wild= jealousy= fights!
ya, maybe things didnt worked out cos of me, i guess.
im nt good enuf.

but the thing is that, they haf never judged me.
so, y shld i, right?
that is the thing that i didnt see laa.


but now, its kinda too late fer me. right?
im sorry, everyone.
im sorry, adnan.

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my VDAY was spent at IKEA, slogging my guts out.
lol.
well, its hard to explain the way im feeling now.
overjoyed laa, sad laa, scared laa, unapprecitaed laa, hopeful laa..
alamak!

its so me laa..

well, but i know 1 thing..
i love him.
=)

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MyHotComments



enjoy ur day, aites?

i bet theres ALOT of people holding flowers, balloons and stuffs.
haha.

i got mine ystd.
thanks alot laa.
that was super unexpected!

huhu..

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every single time i look at my self into the mirror, i go

"why m i so super fat and ugly..?"

as if being ugly isnt bad enuf, im fat too.
dang uh.
thanks ah ronald macdonald and KFC fer all the trans fat.
aiyaahh!
if only im still in my netball training.
lol, right cicak and ain?
hahas.


and whore, u did a freakingly fanta-bulous job in getting what u wanted.
cmon, u know its true, no point denying.
=)

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FEB 2009 couldnt get any worst than this laa..
somebody, pls shoot me!
i swear i hate all of these laa...!

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since plans after werk was cancelled, i went jogging today.
haha.
and and, i dun think ill be jogging fer quite a while now.

well, i fell!
yup, i %$Y^ fell down.
in front of a group of guys who were playing soccer..
like WTF laa.
darn kurb!
haha.

super the embrassing laa..!
like, ill always bumped into at least 1 of the guys on my way home.
damn it!

its now arnd 8pm..
i think im gonna start on my assignment.
like, i haf to even if i dun wanna!

and and, i bought soya bean drink from mr bean earlier on.
and, guess what?!
i burned my tongue.
u know thw feeling of hot water entring ur throat?
yeah, like dat.

well, strike 2 sia.

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well, today i applied the JPAE thingy..

took 5mins to choose.
cos, somehow or rather, i know which school i wanted to go to..
was given 5 choices..

just a sneak peek, okay?

1st choice: hospitality & tourism management-TP.
2nd choise: Leisure & resort management- TP.
haha.

TP laa fer obvious reasons.
its near to my house then compared to other polys.
and and, well, the other reason, lets just not talk about it.
hehs.

so, i gotta wait till 3rd april i guess before the release of the posting results.
i hope i get it.
well, 3rd choice is equally good too.


and and, i serious gotta start on my feaking project.
damn..!



last but not least, i miss you. :(

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an accident happened at the neighbourhood carpark around 7pm just now.
well, my childhood friend's was damaged.
yup, the one ine white.

the bus hit the front part of the car.
tsk tsk tsk,
i tell you..
5 mins after the accident, all the cars parked near the bus was gone!
GONE i tell you.!
hahahs.

well, its things like this tat makes neighbours get to know one another better...
anyway, its i week since i last went out.
im such an angel!

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adnan, i miss you. :(


as usual, at werk, i was being asked to partner wif 2 china guys.
ken and li yong.
so super funny laa these 2 guys.
most of the time, we were teaching each other.
i feel like a P2 kid laa.
trying to converse wif them in chinese.
lol.
thanks to my daily dose of chinese drama, i kinda understand wat they were saying..
hehs!


so, 25mins before i end werk today, one of the guest came to a roo m i was cleaning.

me: "yes, sir?'
guest: "wat time does the door close?"
well, his an indian guy, straight from indian. wait, i aint being racist here.
i sumtimes haf a hard time underrstanding them.
me: "door? ouh, the reception, u mean? its 24 hours, there fer you."
guest: "no, no! the door. is the door 24hours?"
at last, i gt his question.

he was asking if he needs to come back by a certain time. cos, ours uses the card to open the door, right? so, he was afraid if after a certain timing, the door would be locked.
i wanted to laugh laa. but, i cntrolled. i smiled widely.

me: "the door is 24hours as well"
i laughed.
guest: "ooooooo." shaking his head.

shheesshh!
haha.
funny laa.
weird weird people!

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OMG OMG OMG!

someone lifted my mood just a few minutes ago!
im soo soo happy.
yay!


gosh,
this is so a case of, 'so near yet so far!'

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OMG!

no one knows how bad im hurting deep deep deep down inside..
its been quite a few days since i went out, yeah, u know, on leisure.
gosh.
i feel so pathetic.

bye fer now..

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dad offered to buy me a handphone..
cos my hand phone is dying laa, i tell you.
dying.

but but, i rather hold on to my handphone.
it means alot to me.
sentimental value, okay..


and and, as i was at werk today.
i just found out that insects and bugs are always at a corner of a room.
my oh my..
tk padan.
bugs pon tau relek one corner!
haha. get it?!
lol.

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morning jog really help alot, i mean ALOT.
going fer another round, i suppose later.

"After every storm if you look hard enough, a rainbow appears."

True enuf.


bye.

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